( really long synopsis that i also posted on tkc...so if you've read it there you aren't missing anything. kthx. )

i'm hanging on your words ( Read more... )

 oh yeah. btw. i'm still working on my fan fic. i just posted chapter six. if anyone wants the link again, here ya go~~~

http://bflowismyho.blogspot.com/

:D

i suddenly do not have a constant burning desire to be blogging it up all the time. weirdness. i've been feeling a lot better recently...well, over the past week i have had more good days than not. yesterday was icky. today is pretty icky too. nothing compared to my constant, 24-7 panic attacks of the past ( Read more... )

On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair, warm smell of colitas rising up through the air.

someone shoot me. i am so addicted to the killers' cover of hotel california that i could die. <3 <3 <3 brandon is a foxy latino under there somewhere.

FOXY.

MY SPARKLY TEXT AIN'T SPARKLIN. MARK DOES NOT APPROVE.


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i'm truly worried that this summer will be as bad as last summer as far as my neurotic behaviours go. i completely shut down. ergh. it was terrible...just laying in bed for hours, completely terrified and paralysed to even think. i hated even going to work because it was so bad. :\ see, i have ocd over my ocd. it's just a big chain of obsession. ( Read more... )

this probably isn't going to end up the way i want it to, and that breaks my heart. it's like...spinning out of control between two complete and opposite realms. i wish i could get things to stabilize somewhere. i don't know what to expect, i don't know what to think, i don't know what to feel, i don't know what to do or say ( Read more... )

i am a good person. is it bad when you have to say that? today everyone has made me out to be quite the opposite ( Read more... )

omg, the smiths are probably not the best thing to listen to when you want to feel happy...but i'm going for it, kids. i could listen to "bigmouth strikes again" over and over until my ears begin to bleed. and "vicar in a tutu ( Read more... )

i suddenly feel like all my reasons for wanting to stay home have suddenly evaporated. i was happy, i loved my friends, my ocd had calmed down, i no longer felt unstable and wanted to run away from everyone and everything. now, people make snide little comments that they don't think i get and revel in my own unhappiness. how rude and insensitive. i ( Read more... )